so i finally filed for a new Divorce in Utah. I really hope things go smooth. The past while i have been so stressed out its not even funny.
I think im finally getting over all the stuff that happened in the marriage and realizing its not men all around that do that. Many guys yes but not all. So why was I sitting here blaming all the guys for one guys mess ups??
Because that is just how my brain works i guess. I know now after everything that has happened i have changed as a person. I have been to some councilling. I LOVE IT!! It makes me feel happy. I can go and talk to this lady and she helps me. She even asks me if i have been talking to some guys and just the way she talks to me makes me look forward to go see her. She has helped me alot. She very blunt and says things the way they need to be said. She is very possitive and helps or trys her best to help you with whatever you need help with. She is honestly worth the money if i have it.
ANYWAYS
So i am now getting the urge to finally want to talk to guys/men again and get to know some. Before i wanted nothing to do with them because of one i hated all...but im so glad i did...i have talked to several guys this week....and i have found some great friends, and work is alot funner too because i am starting to talk to several people. When people look at me in a certain way or say something i don't think as negative like i use to...its like i don't care and i go with the flow. i ignore all the funny looks and what not...i even talk to alot of the people that look at me funny haha. I don't really judge peole by there looks anymore. because they can look rude or too good to talk to me or something but that is so not the case. I love work haha....I hope they hire me on full time so that i can get on full time so i can possibly get a car...im doing my best expanding my work ability there so i honestly don't see why they wouldn't do so.....i lack in some departments, and i think its time to pray for some help to help me become stronger in my weaker areas. wish me luck..
i have two more classes to do before i FINALLY get my diploma. im so excited...then im going to see what i can do about college...
MAN I WANNA GO ON A DATE SO FLIPPING BAD UGH.....hurry up divorce and get over with so i can flirt and start dating....................Im going to the gym now too so wish me luck there...its time to lose the 50 pounds i have gained.
Friday, March 5, 2010
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