grocery haul and weight pix

This first picture you see is my before weight when i returned from our cruise/late honey moon just 20 days ago. I have lost a total so far for this evening anyways, in the morning will probably be the true true weight. But ........... 11 pounds exactly....yay this is totally awesome i say. that's pretty much slightly over a half a pound a day. its insane. I love it and i feel amazing i feel like i have more energy o how nice it is. I actually feel like i can do something with my life now its GREAT. This was just a little update again the top is my starting weight basically then the bottom one is me now yay soooo exciting. I am also going to post some pictures of what i sorta bought food wise for the week.

                                                                FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

This above is some frozen cherries i use for my smoothies!!

                                                                  Frozen mixed berries also for smoothies
                    Amazing blend of Strawberries,blueberries, raspberries, blackberries .. and that's it
                                                                                 

Frozen mango's mmmmmm

My favorite frozen avocado halves just because i can never seem to choose ripe ones very well nor cute them for some reason and its soooooo easy but not for me and this is just sooo much easier was cheaper and they stay i guess you could say fresh longer. 

cilantro another one of my Favorites, 

mmmm yummy stuff here..Almond milk

Kale pretty yummy stuff, i made some bbq homemade dill avocado Ranch dressing kale chips picture at bottom...yummmy

Just some salad mix stuff i usually use it in my smoothies as well because i just have not felt like a salad

grapes yummy

celery 

spinach my favorite...i can't wait to eat it

egg plant i never liked these really until the cruise there actually VERY good

mushrooms

zucchini 

yellow squash

corn

tomatoes

tiny red potatoes absolutely perfect for baked potatoes 

I know these are not that healthy buuut only have 2 ingredients amazing...love it..

these are very good exotic veggy chips...yummy should try them.

This one is like my all time favorite now specially because i LOVE spaghetti and now this is my noodles VERY YUMMY....spaghetti squash..

home made ranch dill avocado dressing

yummy Kale chips sooooooooo yummy there pretty much gone now.

Well if your still reading thanks and im soo excited to have a success so far lots more to come as i get healthy. 

comments would be amazing!!!

just sayin!!

Hello,
    I another little update....My daughter by the way is doing absolutely amazing for the most part. The divorce is extremely hard at the moment specially when yall just can't agree, because sometimes i guess some people can't look past the past and the grudges and hatred for each other and truly look at there child and for them and whats best for them and there wishes wants and needs at this time in there life. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR thanks for letting me vent.
            Anyways I don't know if i mentioned this if i did here it is again if i didn't here it is for the first time. I am remarried i married my absolute best friend in the whole wide world. Its absolutely amazing i didnt think it was really possible i thought people just sorta faked it and said it to make people jealous haha rude....but guess what in most cases they are telling the truth. I have been remarried now for nearly a year, and thank goodness i did it before i really got back into religion don't worry if you read my blog and aren't into that i won't really be posting much about it for a vast amount of reasons. Anyways its good because if i would have known believed and all that what i do now. I probably would not have ever gotten remarried. True yes i would have stuck with OTR (over the road trucking) come home often enough as possible to see my daughter and bounce until i could find the company to be here like all ways and make enough money to live happy and do so. Guess what that is NOT the case thank you...because i have an absolutely amazing husband that found a regional trucking job and is home every week and comes through the area every now and again. I get to work at home do hobbies work somewhere else and be home yay and he loves it and so do i. Although i do miss trucking a LOT every now and again. but soon as we start having kids and there grown or get older i might do it again part time or something along those lines will see what happens.
               Anyways this is also another reason why i am converting to a raw vegan diet is because i have gotten so unhealthy lately that i am to heavy for my body to agree with the idea of getting pregnant. With how easy it was the first time i would imagine it wouldn't have been a problem what so ever. But anyways that is fine with me cause honestly losing weight first and become healthy is extremely good for both you or me haha and the child. and hopefully i can donate an egg or so or something to a few families and help them out to achieve there amazing goals...i love helping people.
         Thanks for reading!!!!!!!!

follow me with my new life..

Hello,
    I'm Kaitlyn, my English referring to my writing, punctuation spelling and all suck. So im sorry if that bothers you but that's just me and part of who i am. I am sure i am not bad enough to where nothing i say will not make sense you will get the point im sure. I also ramble a LOT on stupid non sense stuff but sometimes its on things that interests me in some sort of way at the moment in time. I can be very random and spontaneous, my mind can jump from one thing to another in a matter of a mil..a...second. It literally drives me crazy how i can not stay focused and concentrate on one thing for a long period of time. I have been known to not stick with things. .... I mean seriously look at this blog i start and end it before i even really got going. LAME! I guess this is just who i am right?? and there is NOTHING i can do to change right?? its who this Kaitlyn is. lame pathetic, blah blah blah. .................... GUESS WHAT........... I actually believed this for the longest time. I have recently discovered this is absolutely NOT the case. I can be an extremely happy active healthy straight thinking positive focused AMAZINGLY smart glowing person. oooo and guess what a VERY AMAZING person at that. To be 23 nearly 24 and to have finally figured this out is amazing. Some people like me never figure it out, others can figure it out later in life, earlier or even around the same time. I wish i would have figured it out sooner but what can i do better now then then.
                  I have been through a LOT in my life according to myself. I really wouldn't wish it on any one especially  if they have or had the vulnerable mind i have or HAD.. Its actually terribly embarrassing that i have humanly aloud myself to do the things i have done. I guess its naturally human for it to happen but ABSOLUTELY UNACCEPTABLE for me in my eyes that its.
                  My parents didn't have the best marriage which explains why they are not together anymore right?? RIGHT. But mom and dad if you ever read this it wasn't really your fault and it wasn't your fault i reacted and took it the way i did. We are all human and non of us but one is perfect. We were sorta born to sin and do wrong. But the main thing and the only thing that matters is that we grow, better ourselves from these things and become a better person and always learn and never turn back. Although i agree it wasn't the best situation to grow up in. I did and I'm grateful that every thing in my life happened the way it did. sorta sad it did but it made me who i am today.. and who i am going to become. I believe it is going to be one amazing person in the end. As soon as i get myself out of this darn whole i got myself into..
               Things were crazy growing up as well, i never really had a good step father or step mother. But hardly anyone ever really cares for step parents they are just there to still your parents away right?? Well i tell you what that is what i thought i lost my parents because they got remarried to these other people that were completely different. They may believe in parenting different and want to do everything there way and things change more kids split families can be a very tough life in a way. Anyways things were not good for more. Things were said to me that shouldn't have been i was treated in ways that weren't right. I was accused of doing a LOT of things i had never thought of or even dreamed about doing. What ever man that is life its all in my past now and im leaving it there. Really i am. its a new life and a new day.
             NOW FINALLY THE REASON WHY I TRULY STARTED WRITING TODAY!!!! I am changing ME!!! in the best way possible. I am going to become a better happier healthier me. Today is that day and i have to seriously try my darnedest to not stray away. understanding i am human i make mistakes but i can become better.
      I have been doing a LOT of research. I am currently in the process of switching over to a vegan diet. things aren't there yet all the way. I would have loved to go cold turkey but things in my life were not right to do so. But i can tell they are almost there for me to completely switch over. 10 years ago when i sat in class in junior high and i was asked where will you see yourself in 10 years. Let me tell you this is absolutely NOT what i had in mind at all. With its one extreme downer everything else is better than i could have ever imagined.
            Anyways im switching over to a vegan diet soon i will be starting a juicing fast im shooting for 60 day juice fast. This is where i eat NOTHING and drink ONLY fruit and veggy juices mainly the green juicys sooo from veggys...After i am done with this i will be switching to a LOW fat raw vegan diet, im also thinking right now that i will have one cheat day for say where i can have one cooked meal. But that is now i might not want that later we will see what happens. Right now i am just playing it by day.
            REASONS: I want to do this because i am ADDICTED to food. Food is like my meth...really this is how i feel, while im eating it, it tastes sooooooo good its like a high haha, then when its gone i feel bloated gross and back to reality thinking man this sucks why why why why.........lets do it again.....NO THIS IS THE END NOOOO MORE.By being an addict to food i have went from a pre-pregnancy weight even though i was very unhealthy then too of 180 to a whopping 280 five years later.As soon as i get everything to start my juicing diet i will take measurements, weight and pictures.
             My plan is to juice only and drink only juice and consume absolutely NO solid food for 60 days...I will be walking at least five times a day and eventually i wanna also bring out my weight and lift it some how. Please wish me luck and i hope you follow me and support me in a better clearer smarter healthier me :)

Abigaile

2.5 years old, She is an amazing little bugger i tell you what. She amazes me everyday. She is now fully potty trained and has been for the past several month. We have been having a little problems this week. she is like refusing to tell me when she needs to go potty. This happened right after she went to daycare a couple weeks ago. I don't know if something happened there or what but were slowly fixing that problem. It's just taking some time.
She knows her ABC's she can say and idtenify them all. She is also learning what each letter sounds like. She knows most of them already too. Before i know it this little girl is going to be reading.

Time for the love. :)

so i finally filed for a new Divorce in Utah. I really hope things go smooth. The past while i have been so stressed out its not even funny.
I think im finally getting over all the stuff that happened in the marriage and realizing its not men all around that do that. Many guys yes but not all. So why was I sitting here blaming all the guys for one guys mess ups??
Because that is just how my brain works i guess. I know now after everything that has happened i have changed as a person. I have been to some councilling. I LOVE IT!! It makes me feel happy. I can go and talk to this lady and she helps me. She even asks me if i have been talking to some guys and just the way she talks to me makes me look forward to go see her. She has helped me alot. She very blunt and says things the way they need to be said. She is very possitive and helps or trys her best to help you with whatever you need help with. She is honestly worth the money if i have it.
ANYWAYS
So i am now getting the urge to finally want to talk to guys/men again and get to know some. Before i wanted nothing to do with them because of one i hated all...but im so glad i did...i have talked to several guys this week....and i have found some great friends, and work is alot funner too because i am starting to talk to several people. When people look at me in a certain way or say something i don't think as negative like i use to...its like i don't care and i go with the flow. i ignore all the funny looks and what not...i even talk to alot of the people that look at me funny haha. I don't really judge peole by there looks anymore. because they can look rude or too good to talk to me or something but that is so not the case. I love work haha....I hope they hire me on full time so that i can get on full time so i can possibly get a car...im doing my best expanding my work ability there so i honestly don't see why they wouldn't do so.....i lack in some departments, and i think its time to pray for some help to help me become stronger in my weaker areas. wish me luck..
i have two more classes to do before i FINALLY get my diploma. im so excited...then im going to see what i can do about college...
MAN I WANNA GO ON A DATE SO FLIPPING BAD UGH.....hurry up divorce and get over with so i can flirt and start dating....................Im going to the gym now too so wish me luck there...its time to lose the 50 pounds i have gained.

Time for the love. :

Abigaile is now two.

Abigaile is now two, i can't believe it. It only seems like yesterday when i was bringing her home from the hospital. Makes me baby hungry. but i have told my self i have to get my schooling done first. its hard enough working a full time job, going to school and still being a mother let alone have more. Not that it can't be done but any who, I got Abby to start saying she's two when i ask her how old she is...she will say two then she will start counting her fingers. I love being a mother words can't describe how wonderful it is to be able to see the world through there eye's.
Living here with my father, dealing with this whole divorce issue and everything else in life is pretty darn stress full .... ugh.... I'm hoping to get hired on full time here at my current job or getting hired at this new company south a little bit and hope i can get out on my own get this diploma before that and get started with college. Finally do what i should have done 2 years ago. well almost 3. I could be finishing up with my college now and working. but the only difference is i know what i want to be now and didn't then....i even want to specialize in a few things later on to hopefully make more hehe
Any ways, Im trying to potty train this little girl and as long as she is with me and at day care she does GREAT but when she stays home she doesn't do so great till i get home, its kinda frustrating. but its all good it will happen when she's ready.